Deerfield Blood

In Deerfield, Massachusetts, the biggest draw undoubtedly is Yankee Candle Village, where busloads of leaf peepers and tourist groups unload their mass of consumer-minded crowds into the impressive Christmas-themed flagship store.  Beyond the highly recognizable New England brand's mega-store, you can travel down route 5 for just a few miles and hit Historic Deerfield, a truly spectacular 18th-century New England village, snuggled into the hills and trees of the Connecticut River Valley.  I wrote a post about it only a month ago.

Now if you go a little deeper into this village, off the beaten path, you will find the founders of this western Massachusetts colony, settled in the 17th and 18th centuries.  You will find the men and women who established this settlement, who birthed babies and planted crops and lived dangerous lives on the edge of civilization, hoping to see great rewards for their perilous efforts.  And you will find a story of tragedy and colossal loss.  On the property of Deerfield Academy, a classic New England prep school, tucked away in a little corner, on a little hill overlooking the academy's sports fields, you will stumble upon the old burial grounds of these luckless, brave, and perhaps also naive first settlers.

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When I walk this hallowed ground, I walk atop the originators of some of my DNA.  My people lie under the dirt and grass and etched slate slabs.  I am descended from the desperate pioneers of Deerfield.  The blood of those whose cells were filled with agony, grief, and unexplainable optimism runs through my veins.

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I descend from Daniel and Elizabeth Belden, who settled in Deerfield in the 1690's.  They have the grave misfortune of settling the feral wilderness, far from the safety of the coastal towns like Boston, in a time when the devil himself was thought to roam and stalk these misplaced hopefuls; and his home was in the deep woods that surrounded them like an outstretched hand ready to fold in and crush them.  This was at a time of cruel aggression, back and forth, between the English settlers and the Native Americans and French.  Such brazen confidence, leaving civilization for certain danger.  Did that trait trickle through the generations and make it into my blood?  Perhaps my adventurous spirit is proof of its existence in admittedly diluted quantities.

This brashness was met in a most cruel way.  In 1696, there was an Indian raid, and poor Elizabeth and three of their children were hacked to death with hatchets.  Two of their children were seriously wounded, but survived, which is remarkable considering one of the surviving children was found with a hatchet sunk deep into his head with his brains spilling out.  Daniel and two of his children were kidnapped and sold as slaves in Canada.  He was eventually set free and returned to Deerfield, where he remarried.  In 1704, the French and Natives attacked the town again.  This time it was a complete massacre.  Again his wife was hacked to death and another daughter kidnapped and taken to Canada.  Even then, Daniel didn't leave.  He lived out his life in Deerfield, even boldly marrying again (his third wife survived the next Indian raid in 1709, bucking tradition).  Brave or irretrievably stubborn, I don't know.  Maybe a bit of both.

When I first entered the burial ground, I photographed a gravestone that caught my eye, a broken, primitive piece of stone.  It wasn't until later that I realized the first stone I chose to shoot was the blood of my blood, a grandfather from generations ago.  It was Daniel Belden's stone which caught my eye and lens before anything else.  Chills tickled across my flesh when I realized this.

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Did his cells, long buried, call out to mine?  Was there some instant recognition on a minute level of our mutual presence?  Was it spiritual?  Or simply an interesting marker that caught my eye?  I'll never know, but it was one of those things that left me in wonderment, pondering the perhaps mystical links of the generations.

Off in the back corner of the burial grounds sits a mound of earth, an unnatural and disturbing site when you realize it is a mass grave.  The bodies of 48 men, women, and children, all victims of the 1704 massacre, share a single grave.  Daniel's second wife is part of that mound.  On top of the dismal mound sits a monument to those buried beneath.  All of the unspoken heartbreak and spent tears of hundreds of years ago stir the imagination and hush the soul.  And I pondered that a portion of that despair belonged to my own people, flesh of my flesh.

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I feel a familial recognition of something in the soil, the land, the trees of Deerfield.  Something in my body perceives the wrenching anguish that overcame my unfortunate ancestors and also the triumph of survival.  Maybe the secret of some of my melancholy, fearlessness, and headstrong nature rests in this New England soil in western Massachusetts, where the bones of sleeping ancestors lie, hopefully in peace.


  1. So ridiculously well written. Such a great post for so many reasons- as I told you. Love you xx

  2. I remember when we went to Yankee Candle Village together and we drove a bit around historic Deerfield and I wanted to see more of it because it was beautiful. If I'd ever gone to boarding school, Deerfield Academy would probably have been my first choice! I've heard about that massacre but I didn't know your ancestors were in it. What a connection! That's so neat that you were drawn to the grave of your ancestor.
    You are a very talented writer and photographer!

  3. Wow, that is quite a fascinating story, and so beautifully told. I do believe there was something "spiritual" that made you photograph that gravestone.

  4. I am a New England also. I live in Nahant which is a tiny island on the north shore of Boston. We are connected to the mainland by a 2 mile island. I have been to Deerfield and it is a beautiful area.

  5. Beautiful. I do believe that the spirits of our ancestors play a pivotal role in our lives. I believe we are cared for and watched over. Such interesting, haunting history you have.

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  7. Wonderfully written. I toured Old Deerfield years ago and would love to go back; I remember in the museum is one of the old front doors with hatchet marks still in it. Beautiful place, how lucky you are to have a connection to it!

  8. Girl, you are a great writer and capture the sadness and braveness of those people so well. So glad I got to be there with you and Emily and Patricia on this visit. It made my heart ache too, looking at that grave. Knowing mothers and little ones rested there. How horrific. I am amazed too that one of the children survived after being SO horribly injured, especially in that day and age! How on earth did he get saved!? There are so many stories hidden inside up. How wonderful that you are in the land of your people and can appreciate it for all its worth!

  9. Your ancestors were certainly tough and resilient, but so are you. It's hard to imagine Deerfield as the wilderness. Nice photos and writing!

  10. I'm equal parts astonished by the sad story and impressed that you have traced your ancestry back to that exact spot and those graves. That's pretty cool!

    I love reading your blog because I long to live in NE, but since I don't I get my fix vicariously through you :)

  11. I just found your blog, and I love it. I just spent the last hour reading through your archives and all your lovely photos. Being a native New Englander, I have grown to love New England, it's history and architecture.

  12. Wow....and to think that there were probably momenst they wondered if the sacrifice they were making were significant, the sacrifices that led to your life and all of us readers getting to enjoy your life experiences!

  13. What a heritage! Many of our fellow New Englanders would be astonished to know about the events that shaped their history. You have told your family story so well. It could nearly be my own.