Brimfield and More

I'm packed up and headed to the Brimfield Antique Show with Yankee Magazine tomorrow. I'm so excited to experience the madness of the country's largest antique fair for the first time! Follow me and Yankee Magazine on Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter on Tuesday, May12th, using #brimfieldfinds. (Instagram: @newenglandliving, Twitter: @NE_Living)

Also, I'm excited to relaunch the blog with a whole new design and features later this week! I'll keep you posted when it's up.

Ingersoll's Ordinary - Instagram Quickie #1

Because I have been so neglectful of this blog, I've decided to start a new feature - the Instagram Quickie! Maybe that way I'll be sure to actually post at least every week or two. I will post a photo and caption from my Instagram account from that day. I will still do my normal posts, but this will keep a taste of New England coming your way, even when I don't have much time.

Ingersoll's Ordinary (1670) played a prominent role in the Salem witch hysteria of 1692. It was located right next to the Salem Village meetinghouse. Tituba's (Rev. Parris' slave and the first accused of witchcraft) husband, John Indian, worked at this tavern. It is also said that some of the first witch examinations took place here. Nathaniel Ingersoll, the owner of the ordinary, accused many of witchcraft. Six of the ten people he accused were hanged.

*Check out my posts on Yankee Magazine online, by visiting my author's page here. I'm working on some really fun and spooky posts for them this fall, and I can't wait to share them with you!

*I want to apologize to all those who have sent me emails and messages over the last couple of months. I've had a busy summer traveling. I will respond, though. I always appreciate the readers of this blog who take the time to write.

A Room of One's Own

"A woman must have money and a room of her own if she is to write fiction." - Virginia Woolf

My library
I find myself doing a lot of writing and photo editing lately. Between the recent online articles I've done for Yankee Magazine and my recent immersion back into the fictional world of my novel, I'm on my computer almost non-stop. I'm the sort of lazy person who would rather be sitting while standing and would rather be lying down while sitting. So, I saw no need to have a desk. Give me a lap desk and my MacBook, and I will be happy in my comfy bed, writing and editing away!

"Not so!" screamed my back.

Hours of lying in the laziest position possible began to gnarl my lower back in pain. Not to mention that writing, dealing with deadlines, and the pressure I put on myself had the unexpected side effect of making my bedroom and bed a place of anxiety and not a place of rest. I started to have trouble sleeping.

That's when I remembered Stephen King's bit of advice about having a space that is solely for writing; and I started to imagine a cute little desk and chair, where I could be surrounded by things that inspired me. I tend to get grand romantic, fanciful notions like that. I knew just the room I wanted too. Our library. It has been my favorite room since we moved into this house, but not a room I spent nearly enough time in. It is part of the original structure of the house, an 18th-century room with exposed beams and beautiful pumpkin pine floors. And it is where many of my books live. My darling books.

My beloved Boston and one of the antique trunks in my collection.

My husband got rid of a piano we no longer needed, and in its place I put a new desk and chair and gave my computer, and my creativity, its new, permanent home.

My new writing space, which looks out at the perfect view

On my music stand, turned book stand

On my desk I set some of my favorite, most inspirational things - a framed print from The Legend of Sleepy Hollow, a few of my antique books, one of the blackbird from my collection, and a Civil War Union jacket button, purchased in Gettysburg. I also rearranged my bookcase to be filled with the things and books I loved the most.

1. Antique camera and old tintype in my bookcase, 2. Uncle Tom's Cabin and other books that sit on my desk, 3. framed print of a scene from The Legend of Sleepy Hollow,  4. Civil War military jacket button

1. Detail from bookcase, a framed illustration of the Salem Witch Trials, 2. Bookcase

Stack of antique books on desk - The Scarlet Letter, Uncle Tom's Cabin, and Irving's Works

The best part about my writing space, however, is my view, which often includes humming birds and butterflies hovering at my window. It's the kind of view that makes village life so appealing. I gaze out at all the antique homes that surround me, as the steeple of an early 19th century church shoots above the rooflines. One of the past owners of my home was a minister in that church over a hundred years ago. He had children born in my home, and one die in my home as well. I often imagine him staring out the same window I do, thinking of his flock as he wrote his sermons.

Part of my view

I now have a room of my own, and it has made all the difference in the world. It really has. Just give me that view, my old books, my computer, and a cup of coffee and I am ready to write!

"So long as you write what you wish to write, that is all that matters; and whether it matters for ages or only for hours, nobody can say."

My Articles for Yankee Magazine:

- Click here for my newest post, about Bass Harbor lighthouse in Maine
- Click here for my post on America's Stonehenge in Salem, NH
- Click here for my post on the Gingerbread Cottages of Martha's Vineyard
- Click here for my post on the Nathaniel Hawthorne inspired side of Salem, Mass

New England Book Recommendation:

I was recently sent The Art of Floating by Kristin Bair O'Keeffee. When I am sent books to review for my blog, I don't mention the book unless I liked it and would recommend it. This one did not disappoint and drew me in from the first paragraph. It's clear from the start that the story centers on a couple of mysterious occurrences - one strange man is found on the beach  a year after the Sia's (the protagonist) husband mysteriously disappears from the same beach. Magic realism is used as an element in the book, which I love. The setting is on the gorgeous Massachusetts coast, north of Boston. And settings mean a lot to me. I'm all about environment. It's a breezy read that also makes you think and wonder.

The House of the Seven Gables in Salem, Mass:

Taste of the Gables on Sept 21, 2014. An evening of amazing food, drinks, and silent auction on the gorgeous seven gables property. I have been in on one of the planning meetings for this event, and it looks amazing!

A Day at Pickity Place

In the years just following our country's war for Independence, a little red cottage was built in the sheltering woods of New Hampshire. On this sleepy little hilltop, time has left this cottage and its surroundings nearly untouched.

The little, red, storybook cottage with the old ash tree towering high above it, called Pickity Place, was once the inspiration for the illustrator of a 1948 edition of Little Red Riding Hood.

Today Pickity Place is a gourmet lunch spot, located in the small southern New Hampshire town of Mason. With its herb and perennial gardens, gift shop, and garden shop, it is also a lovely place to stroll, relax, and stay the afternoon. When I went with a friend in May, it was a rainy, misty day. The spring colors were bright against the mist, and though my toes and sandals became wet in the saturated grass, I could not resist the desire the explore the beautiful grounds, made almost haunting in the foggy storm.

Inside the gardening shed

Barn converted into a shop

Lunch was delicious, made using local ingredients and herbs from their own garden. The menu is limited, changing monthly, for one fixed price. The five course meal was perfectly filling and yummy. I chose the Four Cheese Ratatouille Quiche as my entree. I highly recommend reservations, as this place fills up quick.

Big, bad wolf in grandmother's bed

Pickity Place is a magical little place, where you feel completely hidden from the world. It is classic New England - an historic cottage and bucolic farm set against the New Hampshire woods, like a fairy tale. I can't wait to see this place in autumn!

Also: Check out my newest article on Yankee Magazine on the gingerbread cottages on Martha's Vineyard here.

Upcoming Events in New England:

Louisa May Alcott's Orchard House in Concord, MA - Welcome To Our House house tour on June 28, 2014. Actors will be dressed as members of the Alcott family and will tell tales of the family. 

Longfellow's Wayside Inn in Sudbury, MA - CountryFest and Barbecue on August 8, 2014.

The House of the Seven Gables in Salem, MA - Taste of the Gables on Sept 21, 2014. An evening of amazing food, drinks, and silent auction on the gorgeous seven gables property. I have been in on one of the planning meetings for this event, and it looks amazing!

* if you have any upcoming New England events you would like me to add to the list, please email me at

In Search of Beauty

"Behind every beautiful thing, there's been some kind of pain."
                                                                                         - Bob Dylan

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Walking along a New England harbor, smelling the ocean and its many, hidden creatures, feeling a cold blast of sea air tangle my hair and sting my eyes. My feet sink into the coarse and cool sand, gritty between my soft toes. I let thoughts both deep and superficial come over my mind in waves, as I hold my camera to my face to frame some view that strikes me. This is when I am most happy; and I feel the same when I am looking through the lens at a small New England village, or at a bustling Boston scene, or in a mossy and worn graveyard, or deep in an autumnal forest. I am rooted to this place of New England in some deep, mystical, unbreakable way. When I look through the lens of my camera, I am forced to acknowledge the beautiful, to pay attention, to seek it out, and to remember what brings me peace.

And when I am in the midst of battling my demons of anxiety and depression, I can take the tiny image that meets my eye through the glass and zoom in on it, forcing myself to focus on something interesting or stunning, to frame it, to perfect it. I click the button, and looking down at the tiny screen at the back of my camera, I inspect it to see if the image is clear, if the lighting is right, and when it aligns with  what I envision my heart warms and all is right in my world. I created my own form of instant art, my own instant gratification. There is something about creation and beauty. We humans were made for it.

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For me, depression is not a stranger. It is not a frequent visitor either, but it is recognizable, and I know the sound of its heavy footsteps as it approaches my door. When it does come, it does not gently knock, patiently waiting for me to answer; but rather it blows the door off the hinges, instantly enveloping me without warning, as my whole being is filled with overpowering apathy and hopelessness. It does not manifest in me in any way that is obvious to the outside world. I continue to care for my kids, I continue to engage with others, I continue to eat, to get up every morning, to clean and to feed my family. I survive. I exist. And that's it.

Depression and anxiety are so insidious. They can spring up, like a poisonous weed, quick and unexpected. My genes combined with childhood experiences conspired against me, and there was little doubt I'd be wrestling with these issues for a lifetime. I know few survivors of childhood sexual abuse who do not carry the dark stain of worthlessness on their souls for years. It is something I have continually battled to overcome. Add to that the expectation of perfection and purity inherent in my Mormon upbringing, and the battle for my sense of worth and hope would be perpetually waged. As a child, I was taught in Sunday School that we should die rather than to allow ourselves to be raped or to have our virtue stolen. Virtue was something that could be taken, without being given, and once it was gone it was gone. The message was clear to me, I was already ruined, already broken. I had also in some way sinned, though I was a child, because I didn't defend my virtue with my life. I was a guilty accomplice in my own destruction because I was still alive. Shame became a constant companion, and a sense of impurity and irreparable brokenness grafted into my bones and soul.

These sorts of demons should not be allowed to roam, unchecked, in our minds for long. They tend to grow in power and darkness if we let them. For me counseling has always been helpful, medications not so helpful. I know medications are a lifesaver to many, so I do not downplay or discourage them, but for me they do little. And I'm ok with that since my depressions do not last long, nor are they frequent.

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Melancholy is something I battle more often than full-blown depression. But it can be the precursor to true depression, and I find the most effective way for me to counteract the misery is to go find beauty, to create beauty; to express myself in writing and in images caught from a moment in my viewfinder and kept forever. My own little creations. My own form of validation that I'm here and I matter and my pain can be turned into beauty.

February and March were difficult for me. I made a big change in my life several months ago. It's a good change, a healthy choice, though difficult, and the transition made me sink into that dark, despairing, familiar place. I did battle with my old specters of shame and guilt. Old wounds were reopened. I had moments of weakness. I had moments of strength. And when my husband gave me a new camera lens that I had been coveting, it gave me fresh reason to go out and search for beauty, even in an abnormally cold and bitter March. I searched for beauty. And it was healing.

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I have found that there are gifts in being a person who, due to trauma and genetics, has known deep despair and hopelessness. Simple pleasures and beautiful moments are heightened and made magical. You can't fully appreciate hope and joy until they have been absent. The desire to create and to express myself in writing and in photography takes on an importance that would be unknown had I been a person of steady contentment, a person who lived an eternal spring in my soul. For when you endure a bitter winter, the spring is all the more magnificent.

Old Things

When I was a little girl I dreamed of living in an old house, preferably one with one or two ghostly roommates. I was a bit of a strange, macabre child, and something always fascinated me about the old, the relic, the worn. To be in a house or to hold an object that was used in a different time, when the entire world looked different, when people were different, made my little imagination explode with wonder. People died, but the things they used did not. They remained, links to generations past, touched by hands long since laid to rest in the earth.

As a young California girl, I remember the oldest house in our town was perhaps from the late 1880's. My eyes would fixate on that sprawling Victorian every time we drove by. It wasn't until I learned of places like Salem, Boston, or any east coast locale did I realize our country had houses and things that were much older than anything in my young, west coast habitat, and I longed to step foot into places where Revolutionary War soldiers lingered, or to see where a seventeenth century accused witch called home.

Once I finally achieved my goal of living in an old, New England home (complete with those ghostly roommates), I wanted to fill it with old things. There are modern conveniences I wouldn't trade for their antique counterparts. Give me a modern, comfy couch over a horse hair filled settee any day! And have you seen those antique rope beds? No thanks. But other than those things vital for a cozy sleep or sit, I wanted to see my house brimming with old stuff.

Antiques, as it turns out, aren't cheap, and filling a home of four children with expensive relics of the past was fraught with risk. But the older they get (the kids, that is), the more willing I've been to bring in the antiques and fill my environment with those things that make my heart happy.

It's been a slow acquisition of old things. Whenever I get the chance, I add a little more here and a little more there. On my birthday last month, I recognized the opportunity to get my fix, and went to my favorite antique store, my place of supreme euphoria, and picked a couple of aged beauties for my aged house.

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I came out of the antique store with an antique portrait. I love antique portraits! And maybe that has a bit to do with the slightly eerie appeal of old portraits, the haunting stare of a soul from another time. I also bought another blanket chest to add to my collection. This is my first one that stands above the ground on feet. We are putting this one to good use housing all of our naughty, yummy goodies.

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Each day since we've had our dark-haired, New England gentleman hanging in the dining room, I stop and stare at him and wonder. I want to know his story. I want to know where he lived, what he did, who he loved, or hated. I also want to know the story of the man who stroked his paintbrush carefully against the canvas, capturing a young man and his era. And each day I run my hands along the chipped paint and time-worn surface of the chest and wonder how many hands have opened this lid. What sorts of fashions draped the bodies of those that unlocked the chest? And what did they store in there? Treasures or everyday, sundry items?

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I like being part of the story of these things, I like being just the most recent in a long line of many who have admired and used these items. I love creating a depository of the old and worn in my own home, things that still make my imagination burst with wonder and provoke creative speculation. And when given the chance, I will always bypass the big box store and its easy merchandise in favor of the sometimes frustrating, but always exhilarating hunt for the special or odd treasure that speaks to my soul at my local antique shop. I think the strange, little California girl I once was would be proud.

The House of the Seven Gables

"Shall we never, never get rid of this Past? …It lies upon the Present like a giant's dead body."
                                                                       - Nathaniel Hawthorne, "The House of the Seven Gables"

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Turner-Ingersoll Mansion, built in 1668

The steeply-pitched gables of varying heights dominate each side of the 17th century mansion that faces Salem Harbor. A quaint garden surrounds the home, though during my January visit it was in its winter dormancy. I've seen the garden in every other season, and while it is gorgeous in full-bloom, there is something quite striking in seeing the home completely exposed, obscured only by winter's naked branches.

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Owned by his cousin Susanna Ingersoll, Nathaniel Hawthorne was a frequent visitor to the old mansion. Its tales and history being recounted to him, must have stirred his simmering imagination. His cousin's home became the inspiration for the title of Hawthorne's story and would serve as its greatest symbol, representing the devious ascension of the powerful Pyncheon family and then ultimately their decline and decay through the generations.

The theme that the sins and choices of one generation being visited upon successive generations is something that has been weighing on my own mind lately. We endure the consequences of our ancestors' choices. It becomes our fate, and sometimes our curse. However, in Hawthorne's tale we discover that fate can be overthrown for free will, if only we can break down our own deeply-ingrained, preconceived limits.

"For, what other dungeon is so dark as one's own heart! What jailer so inexorable as one's self!" 
                                                                                                            - The House of the Seven Gables

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The fencing between the House Of the Seven Gables and the harbor.

In a story filled with such romantic gothic elements as ghosts, a decaying, spooky house, witches, and curses, the theme plays out well.  It begins in the 17th century as the greedy Colonel Pyncheon gains some highly valuable property by accusing the poor farmer living on it of witchcraft. Before the poor farmer is hung, he curses Pyncheon with the words, "God will give you blood to drink!"

After the Colonel builds his impressive home on the foundations of the farmer's hut, he is found dead in his study, blood spilled from his mouth, covering his shirt. Every generation after is cursed until the family is fractured, and their once aristocratic status descends to near poverty, evidenced by their need to open a cent shop in their formerly grand home.

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The Accounting Room in The House of the Seven Gables, made up to look like Colonel Pyncheon's study

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Hepzibah's Cent Shop. There never was a cent shop in the home, though one was added for tours to fit Nathaniel Hawthorne's story.

Over a century ago, Caroline Emmerton bought and restored the Turner-Ingersoll mansion and opened it for tours. Capitalizing on Hawhorne's book, she called the home The House of the Seven Gables. Other antique colonial homes of Salem, in danger of falling into complete disrepair or demolition, have been moved to the property. Hawthorne's birthplace was moved to the property as well.

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Nathaniel Hawthorne's birthplace, on the House of the Seven Gables property

In the restoration of the old mansion, and in building up the property, Caroline Emmerton played into The House of the Seven Gables' theme of redemption, of restoration, and breaking of a past generation's curse. The symbolism is perfect, and a reminder that we don't need to crumble to a perceived fate. Homes can be brought back from decay, and so can people.

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The Counting House, circa 1830, on the Gables property

One of the main purposes in opening the property for tours over a century ago was to raise money to help those in need in the Salem community, and that purpose still holds true today.

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The Hooper-Hathaway House, built in 1682, on Seven Gables property

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The House of the Seven Gables amongst its neighbors

The House of the Seven Gables, both the book and the property, symbolize the overcoming of insurmountable odds; the saving of a home, the saving of the soul, the saving of those in need. And beyond those lofty ideals, it is simply a beautiful place to sit, read a book, look out to the harbor, take in the gardens, and imagine life in New England generations ago.

(To read more on my January visit to The House of the Seven Gables, and other Salem locales, read my Yankee Magazine article here.)